ARGH
So what have I been up to lately?? Nothing really, after hard work of juggling, studying everyday, cleaning, and dealing with psycho ex-boyfriend, and a lost friend which I gained back, I failed 2 units, this added to my misery. Still I aim to finish my course still majoring, regardless of how long it takes. I am currently doing 3 units, supposedly 4 but since I failed one of the prerequisite needed for the 4th one, taking up the second year unit was an impossibility. I'm currently sitting on the train, using my uber hot red phone, reminded how uber hot my red laptop was, which is now devastatingly (if there is such a word) crippled. :( I stared at it the other day, thinking that regardless of getting a new one, the worth of the laptop is priceless not in terms of its cost, but the meaning and the sentimental value that accompanies the lightly shimmered red laptop. My parents flew all the way from the philippines to witness mr graduate, despite them spending for me my whole life, just so I can be happy and have the privilege of learning, they still bought me a laptop as a recognition of my success. The event was such a beautiful night for me, the first time that I ever poured my heart through a letter to my step dad of how much I appreciate him, making me and my mum happy, especially my mum. And now, when one day I open that box, and its aroma of fresh new gadget smell hit my senses, I'm not going to be excited because I have somethin new in possession, all I'm going to think of is the sound I heard the first time it hit the wall, the time slowing down, as I try to calm myself and tame my tears, and tried to think that 'nooo! That wasn't my uber hot laptop, that was something else' while my knees weaken, fell straight to the floor, broke down and cried, and then another loud thud, this time, it was louder than before. I knew right there and then, it was too late. My laptop died that day. Sometimes I wonder if he feels more like a man, when he did that. I wonder why he still found it in him to yell at me just after he threw it. He knew what it meant to me, he took that for granted, and took advantage of my weakness. Asshole. I may not be glad that my laptop is broken, but I'm glad that the incident happened that way rather than me getting hurt, and it made me realize I can find someone way better than you.
posted by aL ♥ @ 6:43 pm
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