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Sometimes I wonder what my existence is for. Not that I'm thinking of seizing my existence at all, but it just makes me wonder. Why am i here for? What am i set out to do in the world? Will I ever become one of the legends and make a difference in the world? But my aim in life is so much simpler than that, people may have the same aim, just to be the person you can be to survive, and yet the things we have to go through is so much more complex. On the way there is so much obstacles and so much pain you'd have to endure. You sit there wondering how you'll go through it all and yet you still find enough strength and enough wisdom to prevent complete oblivion.
I dont know where I am as of the moment, I dont know if there is a set milestone that you have reach. All i know is that right now, im trying my best to get there, to get somewhere. There are things you have to give up, and they seem to be such a painful thing to do, but ive come to notice nothings easy anymore. As I get older things become much more hard, the amount of things I think about become more complicated. Comparing what I'm going through what people go through in their lives doesn't even seem like a hard thing, maybe that's what I base my life for, that I cannot complain because people around the world could be going through so much more pain.
This is the start of becoming broke, the start of worrying what to do next, the start of feeling guilty to not do anything at all in a day when really you need to rest somehow. Get away from everything.Everyone will stop you from reaching high, but no one will ever stop you from falling down. Flat on your bum, and no one will stop to help. I somehow feel like I want to prove something, prove that despite it all I will be able to make it, and show everyone that it is possible.
The option of quitting, getting away from it all seems such an easy way, seems such a great escape. I really want to chose it, but there's things to think about like, money spent, time wasted. I don't want to give up all those things. I love my parents for being so understanding, i really do. I don't know how i can go on without that support. Just knowing and trusting that they will be there, makes me stronger somehow. But i also think about not just sticking to that idea.
I can do this.
I dont know where I am as of the moment, I dont know if there is a set milestone that you have reach. All i know is that right now, im trying my best to get there, to get somewhere. There are things you have to give up, and they seem to be such a painful thing to do, but ive come to notice nothings easy anymore. As I get older things become much more hard, the amount of things I think about become more complicated. Comparing what I'm going through what people go through in their lives doesn't even seem like a hard thing, maybe that's what I base my life for, that I cannot complain because people around the world could be going through so much more pain.
This is the start of becoming broke, the start of worrying what to do next, the start of feeling guilty to not do anything at all in a day when really you need to rest somehow. Get away from everything.Everyone will stop you from reaching high, but no one will ever stop you from falling down. Flat on your bum, and no one will stop to help. I somehow feel like I want to prove something, prove that despite it all I will be able to make it, and show everyone that it is possible.
The option of quitting, getting away from it all seems such an easy way, seems such a great escape. I really want to chose it, but there's things to think about like, money spent, time wasted. I don't want to give up all those things. I love my parents for being so understanding, i really do. I don't know how i can go on without that support. Just knowing and trusting that they will be there, makes me stronger somehow. But i also think about not just sticking to that idea.
I can do this.
posted by aL ♥ @ 2:51 pm
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