Demonic Angel

People do stupid things and not realize it. Its probably just human nature. We become so cowardly that we dont want to face reality, our problems that are affecting us, and to make it worse we think about the problems that may arise soon.

I feel like, whenever I seek for happiness people always try to ruin it for me. That's just a feeling,but the thought lingers, why are they doing it? Are they doing it to make themselves better? I always wonder if people think the same way as I do. Do they ever wonder how their actions could affect anyone? I deal with my problems my own way, and try not to get other people involved. I just don't understand why people have to talk about me behind my back, make up things. Do they enjoy torturing me? Sometimes I wish I wasn't as caring and as nice as I was. I wish didn't empathize about what other people think or feel, or how it would affect them.


For once, I'd like to be the one that people would care for, instead of the other way around.
It makes me sick, thinking about things I think of. I think about the most random things. I think constantly, and then take into heart.

Stop. Alyssa. Just stop.