Demonic Angel

Confusion rushes over me as I look into the abyss with so much question. Blinded by the brightness and the gorgeous sun lowering itself, I look down and wish I could reach the sun, it seems like Im right next to the sun, but at the same time the sun was too far away. As my eyes water with so much anger and passion, I walk away from the sun. Turn my back, and let out all the tears I have tried taming inside. I sit with a hand on my face, and a cigarette on the other, silently..I let out all the scream inside. Despite it all, i was still afraid for everyone to hear my scream. So i scream in my head, where only i can hear it, only i can benefit from venting out everything that cannot be expressed through words.

I wonder, why I like the sun so much. Maybe it's the piercing beauty of its light, or the way the sun gives me comfort, gives me warmth. Not knowing want the sun really thinks, sometimes it goes up..sometimes it goes down, and with it I come.

It's like everywhere I go, the sun is there. Why?
Deep in the darkness, is where the sun and i can be together.
I fuckin dont make sense.