Tears of joy? Or tears of sadness?
The second time I cried today, the first time was when my mum was on skype and my dog Bo was on the camera, i wanted to just hold him so badly, that i cried, and also I was happy to see him. Tonight, i cried again because I saw muffin.
I could have chosen to go with family, but i chose to stay to persue my 'dream', i don't know I just don't have any place in the Philippines anymore by the time I get there, It would be probably be too complicated to get into a decent University. Also they don't have my course.
I start next week, orientation week was okay, my course is really a dominating course, somehow I feel sort intimidated, but I wont let that get in the way. I know regardless of gender I can pass it and get there the same. I looked at my course overview and jesus christ its dreadful. Im anxious of whether I'll be able to do it or not, programming softwares? phooaah man. It's exciting to know nthat I'll be able to learn it, and also scary that it looks complicated. Im enjoying the previleges though, my course provides me with free softwares which is great, but its pretty time consuming one, also... with expense like internet requirements, plus rent to move closer. Seriously travelling there everyday has gotten me so tired. Still haven't found a place. So stress is already catching up with me from the long holiday i had lol. I think its making up for all that free time!
This is it! A new chapter of my life, its scary but Im happy that the University has good facilities and very good range of resources.
Mum's leaving next week, monday. It's pretty sad, lol. Just as when I got used to her being here and now she's leaving. That's always been the case! Yeah but i guess that's the price you pay yeah? Well anyway, I don't know. LOL. I'm pretty bummed up, i hate being alone. In the whole australia, im the only one living here with no family. How dodgey lol? But once I get busy I think I'll get distracted, with all these gloomy and blue issues.
I've started pre reading my book, to be prepared, that's what the prof said. He grouped emailed everyone telling us what to do and stuff and that was really good help, also provided a site of good resources and toturials and all that, so that when we get there we wont be clueless of what to do, i wonder if anyone else is doing it, or am i the only one being paranoid? and being a geek?
My stomach curls just thinking about all the units of work to do!
I could have chosen to go with family, but i chose to stay to persue my 'dream', i don't know I just don't have any place in the Philippines anymore by the time I get there, It would be probably be too complicated to get into a decent University. Also they don't have my course.
I start next week, orientation week was okay, my course is really a dominating course, somehow I feel sort intimidated, but I wont let that get in the way. I know regardless of gender I can pass it and get there the same. I looked at my course overview and jesus christ its dreadful. Im anxious of whether I'll be able to do it or not, programming softwares? phooaah man. It's exciting to know nthat I'll be able to learn it, and also scary that it looks complicated. Im enjoying the previleges though, my course provides me with free softwares which is great, but its pretty time consuming one, also... with expense like internet requirements, plus rent to move closer. Seriously travelling there everyday has gotten me so tired. Still haven't found a place. So stress is already catching up with me from the long holiday i had lol. I think its making up for all that free time!
This is it! A new chapter of my life, its scary but Im happy that the University has good facilities and very good range of resources.
Mum's leaving next week, monday. It's pretty sad, lol. Just as when I got used to her being here and now she's leaving. That's always been the case! Yeah but i guess that's the price you pay yeah? Well anyway, I don't know. LOL. I'm pretty bummed up, i hate being alone. In the whole australia, im the only one living here with no family. How dodgey lol? But once I get busy I think I'll get distracted, with all these gloomy and blue issues.
I've started pre reading my book, to be prepared, that's what the prof said. He grouped emailed everyone telling us what to do and stuff and that was really good help, also provided a site of good resources and toturials and all that, so that when we get there we wont be clueless of what to do, i wonder if anyone else is doing it, or am i the only one being paranoid? and being a geek?
My stomach curls just thinking about all the units of work to do!
posted by aL ♥ @ 9:24 pm
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