Demonic Angel

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So tomorrow is the start of the school year. Another phase of stress, studying, and drunken nights. LOL. I have 3 lectures all close to each other tomorrow, gonna have to make a run to another room. LOL. Damn it. Damn my lung incapability of cardio work.

I was pretty drunk last night lol, we went out drinkin with my mum it was hilarious. I got a hangover this morning, thus again thank god for the existence of Advil. Without out, my drinking days will not be complete and wouldn't be so enjoyable. I have to revise my books to know what the lecturer is going to talk about tomorrow, but the question is... Do i have enough brain cells left? hmm. I wonder if it would be a challenge trying to understand the books, with its series and series of symbols and mumbos.

Well anyway, last night I went to do some thinking before i passed out completely from the room spinning so quickly, that I'll be okay... I think ill be okay. No no no scratch that I WILL BE OKAY infact ill be so okay that Ill be great. There's no point mopin around and crying, Im shapin up and do some lovin for myself. Make myself happy you know? It's time to stop worrying about other people and start worrying about myself, I think i deserve it. I do not deserve to punish myself, lol. I need to get over it and just move on, that nothing will happen, regardless of how many tears and praying I have to do, the circumstances will always be the same. So.. I will hold my head up high, and smile. Be happy, and worry about myself, focus on my studies and possibly find more friends.

So to start making myself happy, today I vent my pain, and move on. Today I painted my nails red, and satisfied myself by painting my favourite colour, red, on my finger nails. And yes it may seem shallow and irrelevant but I am somehow happy. Today I will sing, and splurge myself and spoil myself with countless stationary I will get from officeworks. With the help of my mother offcieworks will become a sanctuary of peace and happiness! lol.

It's time for a change with the new chapter in the book of my life, make a better history for the future.

posted by aL ♥ @ 2:50 pm