Demonic Angel

new school

Tomorrow would the the first day ever to make an impression. First impressions last I reckon, and if it doesn't it always takes a long time to redeem a good impression. More or less, im nervous of how people would take me, if ever i'd be the lonely nerd. lol. Either way I know somehow i know I'll make new friends. The question is would they be like the friends i have now? I guess it's a process we all have to go through again.

I act as though this is my first time I've always moved school ever since I was a little girl and it has been the same feeling every single time I had to face the whole school as the new girl. I guess this time it should be easier because all of us will be new to the school. Chest tightening, stomach butterflies and the none stop giggling is what i get. I don't know why but i laugh like a bloody hyena when i get all shy and embarrast. Yes i make myself look like an idiot.

5 years old, was the first time I had to try and sleep because I was so anxious about the next day, I had to move to 3 kindergarden schools because i wasn't getting along with the little brats. Then finally I had settled down in one school. Grade 2 I had to move schools again, and I was new, the 'new catholic girl' I was known as moving into a 'iglesia ni kristo' / 'church of england' school. I sstood there lead the prater as I watched them with shocked faces as i did the sign of the cross. How was I supposed to know? LOL. Grade 3 I moved to North Williamstown primary school, and they all spoke to me so slow, as if i didn't understand english this time i was known as 'the new chocolate faced girl', yes i earned that title lol. I didn't even have to work hard for it too! Grade 4 I moved to Marymount, the first school i actually stayed in for a while, I skipped a grade when i moved back to australia, i was supposed to be in year 9, but i went straight to year 10. Again with the slow talking, suprised as the year level coordinator she goes "oh, you have an aussie accent!" Graduate there at MSJ for highschool, leaving me behind from my friends in Marymount, I watched them graduate before me, they had a little slideshow of how it was througout the years, I wasn't even in one of the photos :'( And now, Deakin University. Oh god, another process, I wonder what title I'll earn this time.

Anxious, I wonder when were going to be able to get an apartment. Frustrated as well because it seems like a very hard process. So tomorrow, I have to travel for about 2 hours just to get to Deakin. And if we don't get one soon, it'll be a 2 hour process of going to and from Deakin. By the time ill get home, id be too tired to eat.

Besides all that anxiety and nervousness, and frustration, I am sort of excited, I am now an official University student! Which sounds great! Lol.

posted by aL ♥ @ 3:01 pm