Demonic Angel

The Talk

It was hilarious. I wanted to see if I could be strong about it, and yes I definitely was. I hate him so much that I couldn’t be forgiving. It found that he couldn’t answers my questions as he was guilty of what he has done. For once I was chuckling inside knowing that I done nothing wrong which I was proud of while talking to him. On the other line, he fell silent. As I was filling him with questions that I had been longing to get answers for, to somehow get it over with, and somehow forget about it, and yet he could not come up with any reason. His reason for his ignorance and inhumane actions towards me was because he was always high on marijuana, and that he did not know what he was doing, that he was lying to me all that time, saying he had never done it ever since we got together.

Is that really a good excuse? Should I just forget everything just because he was victimized with the addiction with marijuana? I didn’t give him that marijuana did i? I guess stealing my digital camera, and two of my phone gave him the money to do that. Who could ever do that to their girlfriend really? The promise of love just seems irrelevant when I come to think of it. He had called to say his feelings, so what now? Do I just forget everything? Just because he was a having a hard time with his girlfriend he just suddenly thought of me. I find that fucking hilarious. Excuse my cursing.

I don’t know if I can ever forgive him, he seems to have the courage to talk to me whenever I’m about to send myself of to the Philippines. I wonder how his exes forgave him, I wonder if they have gotten through worse. I called him cowardly as he cried there saying he was scared of me. Scared? Really what I had said was nothing compared to everything he has done to me.

So I will drop this subject, it is not even worth my time. Not worth thinking about, coz seriously, I don’t give a crap of how he feels when he doesn’t even give a shit about what I had felt, and what I feel now, because if he had, then he wouldn’t yell at me to say that I have to understand what he’s going through. Why should i? I really couldn’t come up with any reasons why I should.

This was a complete waste of my time as nothing was established from it and nothing was resolved at all.

posted by aL ♥ @ 3:42 am