Demonic Angel

Is life really like riding a bicycle? I know it's not supposed to be not hypothetically speaking, but i wish it were that easy! But then again, it would be too easy for everyone. I guess im just really worried about my results that are coming out tomorrow, its really scary. What if i dont get the result i want? I don't want to disappoint anyone. It would completely bring me down, because i worked so hard this year.

Im so scared, maybe im under estimating myself? but everytime i try to think positive i somehow feel like i might jinx it. It's like im holding my breath for such a long time, and my heart is supposed to slow its beating but it just keeps getting faster as the day closes in.

All my friends are smart, and i feel like if i get a low score it would just lower my self esteem because they would all be so excited about their high scores, and i would just be sitting there wishing i had a high score too, and it really saddens me. Plus my parents. I don't want to disappoint them... im going to visit them in less than 2 weeks what am i going to do if i dont get the score i wanted? I wouldn't have the face to show.

omg.