free day
Since on thursday night we had a school meeting, friday was announced as our day off. I went out to see my friend Thoa, met up with her at newport station, then Louise was there too, we took the train to the city then went shopping...then she wanted to see her boyfriend because it was his birthday... so we took the train to lalor to see our friends. lol. it was fun. Then i went home. Helped ma prepare dinner, i got in trouble a bit for getting home late, 2 hours late from the time they expected me to come home, the train took so long eh! And i had to walk home from the station :( it was so dark pa, i came home at 8 kasi. So yeah at 12 mn i watched Aquamarine!! It's a very cute and cool movie, especially that Jojo is in it :) ehehe. And that girl from the movie "sleepover" ehehe. Then after that i watched "failure to launch" it's a funny movie, and a very romantic one too :) ehehe. Post soon.
going coed
Lol. Saw uhm Angela's comment on my chatterbox, i don't hav eto transfer coz of school is going coed! lol. With hot St. Paul guys, lol.
So yeah about the party people are still talking about it especially rasika.. yeah man lol, and that freaky peter guy is hitting on us all. muhahaha. my description from himj because he forgot my name was "the hot chiq with black top" and my description for him was "the freaky horny ecstacy guy" but he didn't really take ecs, we just thought that he did lol. gotta go post soon im at history time lol.
party.hangover.shit.
Okay im now at the computer lab, it's our Info time. Lol. My front page sucks, i prefer html like doing it hand on, lol.
Well anyway, the other night i went to Thoa's party, lol it was fun, guys we're asking me to dance, but i didn't want to, and that weird perv kept full on touching me, thank god my friend Lilly was there! lol, please click
here to see photos from the party. I had 4 cruisers,. ( vodka ) and 3 burben and coke, however you spell that drink lol. gotta go. time na post later. mwah!!
bummer
Okay last night sucked as well like how ymday sucked yesterday. I couldn't hold my tears any longer, i called besh. And then later on i called sis. It makes me feel better to tlet it all out to someone, than crying alone, because the people who listen are the people who care for me. That's the best thing, i don't need them to condemn him i just need them to listen. And those two people last night listened and said the tipical "yeah" "uhm" "uhum" words.
I slept late again. How could i sleep early? My life stinks. Seriously, everyday it seems that im not thankful anymore. It's annmoying really. I should have gone to a co-ed school if i knew we we're going to break up anyway. Then i could find a cutie. Lol.
Type in soon. RASIKa is annoying me. :D and she's bragging about her being my bestfriend. That i should talk to her instead of typing my ass off. she said "you should!!" while reading the things im typing. yeah gotta go.
type in later
shit hole day
why this day was shitty
because i woke up from a horrifying [ sweet ] dream of my so called ex boyfriend. Why does god punish me? he's making it very hard for me to forget him. Pano kasi last night he was online and he wanted to chat with me, he told one of my friends. And then he sent my a message using his mom's phone saying "dont you want to talk? :c -jm". I didn't reply though.
I didn't want to wake up coz i still wanted to sleep, because i was still very sleepy...but i had to force myself.
My classmate got her phone confiscated and told the teacher it was my phone! and she wanted me to try convince the teacher! so i told the teacher the truth anyway. hey?! i may be a bad ass chiq but i aint a liar.
The day was so fucking boring.
Flash backs and memories keep disturbing me today. i hated it . It only made me sad the whole day.
It's just so annoying. my day is fucking sick, and i guess the whle freaking weak is going to be like it.
end to a living hell called "ex"
Before, hinahabol kita pero di mo ako
pinapansin.
Tapos isang araw nawala ako, hinanap mo ako at
tinanong, "Bakit ka nagsawa?" Ngumiti
ako, "Hindi ako
nagsawa. Natauhan lang." Pwede mo kong
lokohin pero
wag kang magpapahuli sakin. Pwede mo kong
palitan
pero siguraduhin mong mas mahal mo siya
sakin. Pwede
mo kong iwan pero siguraduhin mong kaya mo.
Kasi pag
ako sobrang nasaktan, wala ka nang babalikan.
Ang Boys? Pag trip ka, magpapakilala. Kaibigan
kuno
hanggang pumorma na. Tapos pag nahulog ka
na,
ayun, goodbye na dahil sawa na sila. Pero dapat
walang
iiyak at smile lang tayo. Punyeta, anong silbi ng
karma?
I fell in love and got hurt but I didn't shed too
much tears nor did I ask him to love me again.
Instead, I stood up proudly and said, "Ganyan
talaga
ang magaganda! Hindi bagay sa tanga!"
Simple lang para hindi ka masaktan. Kapag
minahal ka,
mahalin mo din. Kapag ginago ka, gaguhin mo
rin.
Pero kapag umiyak ka, tanga ka! Ginago ka na
nga,
iiyakan mo pa?
Pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo, wag mo siyang
sisihin!
Kausapin mo siya ng harap-harapan at sabihin
mong,
"Ingat, tanga ka pa naman!"
Masakit pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo. Pero wag
kang
magagalit ng husto. Kahit papano may
pinagsamahan
naman kayo, diba? Kaya for the last time
yakapin mo siya at ibulong mo, "Gago, kukulamin
kita!"
Girls, talo daw tayo sa mga boys? Papayag
kayo? Sige,
pag niligawan tayo, sagot agad. Pag iniwan tayo?
Ok
lang. Kapag sinabi nilang, "Uy, ex ko." Alam niyo
sagot diyan? "Ay, ambisyoso."
If the one you love doesn't love you back, don't
get
depressed. Just think about it for a while, maybe
cry
a bit then wipe your tears and say, "Ang weird
naman
niya. Di siya pumapatol sa magaganda!"
You only got one life so live it well., one heart so
take good care, one soul so keep it pure. One
boyfriend? What a waste! Make it two or
more!
Sayang ganda natin!
Pag sinabi sayo ng mahal mo na ayaw na niya
sayo,
hayaan mo lang. Wag kang iiyak at
magpapakagago!
Imbis na iyakan mo siya, ngitian mo lang at
sabihin mo
ang ganito, "So, pano? Bye na! Naghihintay na
ang
kapalit mo!"
Who cares about break-ups? Oo nga, masakit.
Makirot sa
puso. Pero tandaan mo: a break-up isn't only an
end
to a relationship. It's also a beginning of a new
one
and an end to a living hell called "ex".
wet and cold
yeah we went out today but it wasn't that great coz it was raining, imagne its cold and you get wet! diba? nakakasar. But we did shopping. Bought uhm black jazz pants, and cool camo pants! ahihi. they look cute! and a bracelet with my name on it! If you're wondering where...we were at vic market. Then after the tiring shopping, we went to vic market place, to eat. :) so un. masaya. i had yang chao fried rice. yumm. some pics ...
[ click on images to view more pictures today! ]
Dan showing off her Lolly Pop
The bracelet i bought today, with my name on it. It has charms, a letter "a" and a heart :)
Me with the como pants. :D
hmm
Okay last night i slept late again, i called besh, and then he said he would call back coz there wasn't signal from where he was at last night, which was the station, ahaha. Then I called ate r, and un chika! i missed her more tuloy!! aww!! After saying our goodbyes, laughrip tumawag si besh, i didn'nt know! i was reading my book, then i checked my phone there were 4 voicemails! laughtrip nakaktawa pag nagsalita si besh dun.
Today catched the train with brittany, meghan, and faye. yeah, then they all went to brit's house, i didn't come coz i needed to get home, ma might get mad or something. ahaha.
It's annoying how some people just forget in one snap about you, and live life with full happiness. Not for long, i believe in Karma. fuck all assholes.
Well aniweeeeh. Chatting with besh right now.
updated: [click to visit ]
Multiply : edited my theme a bit, naasar lang ako sa banner, im not satisfied with it, since my adobe is broken!! uhuhu!!! so un. feeling ko pangit.
Friendster : added videos, and changed the shout out.
kk? update soon.
nyerk
This bloody connection with Yahoo messenger its fuckng cracking up! so anyway i didn't go to school today, since i was so tired kaninang umaga. so i told my mom i wasn't going to school. Ayoko pa namang nagaabsent, pero i was so tired eh! ahaha.
Asteeg, a lot of peeps are online in the philippines! they dont have classes eh, bagyo daw. :) so un, alot of my friends are online.
it's weird how people keep asking me "how's jm?" im like.. wtf?! i dont even know that person anymore, so lay low and dont talk about it poeple!! ahaha!! well anyway im hungry, going to find food hehe. later!!
hmph
Okay now im at the computer lab C1, coz uhm, last night after we watched a movie, the connection cracked up, so i wasn't able to post. Not that there are a lot of things to post, it's just so not me not to post. Hmm ano ba yesterday. Yeah took the train with Britanny again, to see meghan, but meghan wasn;t able to come again! so we both had to go home na since she was going to see her boyfriend pa. ehehe. So yeah un. And oh yeah i sent a group message in ym sa freaky bitches who are so annoying. Atleast im honest! :p and true to my self, not like you posers!
Arytie, take the negative vibe in you Alyssa... ommm ommm.. muhahaha. Well anyway gotta do work. Even though mine looks like shit. Ahaha. It wont accept the normal html shit. You have to like upload the pictures, which is a bit hard for me since i do it online hands on, on the spot!!! waah. But it's aryt. I kept it simple but cute. :D
Later! ;)
i wonder
Is god punishing me? I think not. Instead i think he's doing this for me. Even though, pain, betrayal, and hate is what I'm feeling i lose no hope. For i think he has a better plan for me. He will not feel sorry for what I am going through, but he will be happy, because maybe for what i was going through before was not making him happy but making him sad to see me that way. Full of patience, trust and love, and pain was what i was getting in return, but i kept taking chances and risks. I thank you Lord.
Today was laughtrip, but also sad. Since my friend had a problem. :( so i took the train. Laughtrip pa kasi i was on the other platform and brittany was in the other, we kept tossing the lighter back and fort, ahaha, laughtrip. and we we're talking pa. good thing we could hear each other we didn't have to yell, that'll be embarassing. ahaha.
So yeah, from north williamstown station i walked to safeway coz dan and ma was there. We watched Romeo and Juliet today, the really old film, funny how professor snape from harry potter was in it! ahaha, it was boring i couldn't understand a thing man! ahaha. it was all old english and shit.
Anyway. Bored. ahaha.
why the dragonzz blood
First of all because "gayle_enigma" is full of memories, and i found dragon's blood cool, as my mom bought a dragon's blood incence today, as an incence it's an acient incense used for love, protection and exorcizing negative energies. It is said that it brings out balance and clarity. So why is it dragonzz blood? bcause someone already had dragons_blood and dragonz_blood. aahaha.
About:
Name and Source:
A great degree of confusion existed for the ancients in regard to the source and identity of dragon's blood. Dracaena resin, "true"
dragon's blood, and the poisonous mineral
cinnabar (mercury sulphide) were often confused by the ancient Romans, as there appears to be a tendency to call all things that are bright red "dragon's blood". In ancient
China, little or no distinction was made between the dragon's blood from the two species.
Both
Dracaena and
Daemonorops resins are still often marketed in contemporary times as Dragon's blood with little or no distinction between the plant sources.
Voyagers to the
Canary Islands in the
15th century obtained dragon's blood as dried garnet-red drops from Dracaena draco, a native to the
Canary Islands and
Morocco. The resin is exuded from the wounded trunk or branches of the tree. Dragon's blood is also obtained by the same method from D. cinnabari, which is
endemic to the island of
Socotra west of
Somalia. This resin was traded to ancient
Europe via the
Incense Road.
Dragon's blood resin is also produced from the
rattan palms of the genus
Daemonorops of the
Indonesian islands and known there as jerang or djerang. It is gathered by breaking off the layer of red resin encasing the unripe fruit of the rattan. The collected resin is then rolled into solid balls before being sold.
Uses:
The dragon's blood known to the ancient Romans was mostly collected from D. cinnabari, and is mentioned in the 1st century
Periplus (30:10. 17) as one of the products of
Socotra. Socotra had been an important trading centre since at least the time of the Ptolemies. Dragon's blood was used as a dye and medicine in the
Mediterranean basin, and was held by early
Greeks,
Romans, and
Arabs to have medicinal properties.
Dioscorides and other early Greek writers described its medicinal uses. It was also used in medieval
ritual magic and
alchemy, as its users believed it was literally the dried
blood of dragons. Not Native to North America, some of the plants have been brought over in recent years and naturalised.
Dragon's blood of both Dracaena draco and Dracaeno cinnabari were used as a source of varnish for
18th century Italian violinmakers. There was also an 18th century recipe for
toothpaste that contained dragon's blood. In modern times it is still used as a
varnish for
violins, in
photoengraving, as an
incense resin, and as a body
oil.
Dragon's blood from both Daemonorops were used for ceremonies in
India. Sometimes Dracaena resin, but more often Daemonorops resin, was used in
China as red varnish for wooden furniture. It was also used to color the surface of writing paper for banners and posters, used especially for weddings and for
Chinese New Year.
In African-American folk magic or
hoodoo, it is used in mojo hands for money-drawing or love-drawing, and is used as incense to cleanse a space of negative entities or influences. It is also added to red ink to make "Dragon's Blood Ink," which is used to inscribe magical seals and talismans.
In
folk medicine, dragon's blood is used externally as a wash, believed to promote healing of
wounds and to stop bleeding. It is used internally for chest pains,
post-partum bleeding, internal traumas and menstrual irregularities. In
neopagan Witchcraft, it is used to increase the potency of spells for protection, love, banishing and sexuality. In New Age
shamanism it is used in ceremonies in a similar way as the
neopagans use it. The use of it, however, in a Native American ceremony is an obvious indicator that the ceremony is NOT a real Native American ritual and is most likely from a fraudulent source. As the source plants were not available in North America until it was brought from Europe it was obviously never used in "traditional" or ancient Native American ceremonies.
new...ID.Pendant.Pictures.
NEW ID
I have a new YM ID, please delete gayle_enigma
and add up dragonzz_blood
instead.
Thanks...
Ill add in details later wy it's dragozz blood. :D
NEW PENDANT
today my parents went out, alond with my sister, and then my mom bought me a cool pendant. It's from england. :) here's a photo.
Te one on the left is the new one, Its a
Celtic Birth Charm ; BC16 ; 10-DEC-31-DEC
Heulsaf Y Geaf
Charisma
the on on the right is a locket which ive had since
i was 12, mom got it for me, from France. :)
Its Amazing how pretty pendants can be. ;)
NEW PICTURES
3 New albums on multiply. Yesterday ma used me as a subject to practice her photography. Ill post it later on tomorrow, since she hasn't uploaded it yet. I think she's making a site, full of er works. :)
click here to visit my multiply
bored
okay ive had a thought about it. Im continuing the "not talking to him" again. because basta. ahahaha. so yun. i heard he's been telling people na babalikan nya ko and shit, sus! wag nah! just because he couldn't gt a girl. eww.
hmm
Okay yesterday when we we're in info class, i showed this website and my homepage to my teacher, and it was embarassing coz she showed it to the whole class, i was so red, coz she had it on the projector, ehehe. But they we're all cool about it.
Hun and i are talking again. He finally said sorry. 2 nights ago. Nothing really had changed, we are just you know having a hard time, because i dont really know if the things i found out are true, and i dont know either if he's telling me the truth. So last night, he said. "i've been lost lately, i need to find my self because i wan't to, can you wait for me?" i kept quiet he continued "can you do that please?" so basically now, we're not mortal enemies anymore but instead we're really good friends. It's weird really, kasi parang kami parin na parang hindi. Inaasar inaasar ko xa and he does too with me. And we still say our I love yous and all. It's weird really.
Well anyway, im at info now, i couldn't be bothered to post last night coz my laptop was cracking up, annoying, i wanted to throw it. agggh.
Lifes hard.
at info tech class
yeah. now im insterested, ahaha, i might get high marks on this. We're working on Microsoft Front Page!! weeepee!! well anyway post later i might get in trouble. ehehe. blogger works here now!! yeah
whoah. haha. buti nga
Hmm not updated much lately ah. Well first ive taken down, jm and my photo! ahaha, eww. so yeah. Then tomorrow, our band from music is performing in front of the whole school, at school assembly, coz we have a new hall/gym. :) it's cool, huge. Yeah. AHaha. I mght get stage fright. LOL! just kidding. Yeah so anyway, today i got home, had a chat with carissa, laughtrip. then uhm one of bro Vaben's friends added me up again today, gago kasi! he IMed everyone on his list saying "Alyssa Paras single na!! add nio!! gayle_enigma" asar! ahaha.
Someone's pissed!! that freaking loser who fell asleep at his party! how sad! how embarassing!! yeah well last saturday i was so mad, and all from the shit that i found out. ahaha. i deleted both of his account. And now he made one! ahaha ung about me nya ito.
About Me:this is my new account. someone deleted my old one hassle puta.. add this nalang! thanks. im out.
whoah! galit ah!? ahaha well on my side asshole, serves you right for deleting me in your life just like how i clicked the button to delete your account!! as sis brownie said. [ tawny anne ] "oo nga sis konteing click click lang" ahaha. yeah. Assholes. And like his desperate to have a girlfriend and he flirts with everyone! kahit ung may mga gf! My god!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well anyway. un lang. ahaha.
I hate him. And Im lovin the way im hatin' him.
rewind. fast forward
if i could rewind time. Sana hindi ko xa sinagot.
If i could fast forward sana im over him na.
comment.tag.thanks.
Aquarium.
Just finished cleaning my aquarium, and then I added some shells ehehe. Its looks okay now, except the light isn't working anymore, so were getting a new bulb. :) I think the fishes like the new shells I've put in ahaha. Boy did it stink so much when I cleaned it! Especially the cloth from the filter! ahaha.
Type in later! :)
singing.tfc.muhaha.
Okay just had a chat with besh. Laughtrp tlga ung bestfriend ko na un. Well anyway, kanina just before my dad came home with the new phone :) me and my mom we're singing on the magic sing. Ahaha. Laughtrip my mom stood up on the couch pretending she was a famous singer. I was just laughing my ass off, and my sister was laughing too. Well i sang a few song. Then the last song.. hmm "are you happy now" damn it felt good singing it! ahaha.
Tfc. Hmm July 2 many and larios mano a mano!! LIVE! ehehe. saya tlga pag may tfc. weehheee. i watched bituin walang ningning nnmn, i loved kasi the movie, ung original one. kaya ngyn im interested to watch it. ahaha. ayun.
Just to clear things up guys. I broke it off. And I was hurt not because I felt sad of not having him anymore, and not being able to call hm my boyfriend. But i was hurt because i felt betrayed. I really did, after all that ive done for him, this is what he exchanges me with. On the night of anniversary. I called him, binabaan nya lang ako. I called him again and again, nireject nya lang calls ko. And then he turned his phone off. And then i find out something about a girl and him the next day. God. I really wouldn't call it a Happy Anniversary. And all that bulshit about still loving me? asshole. He's flirting with other girls behind my back. This as besh said, has been my smartest decision, to leave him, because the dumb decision i made in the first place was to love him. And people... he's dumb and stupid to hurt me and to let go of me.
I hope Karma finds it's way to him soon enough!
Now lets see.
This is me.
and this is what he'll get it the future.....
a plate of shit.
Good Luck to Him!
