new phone.
Weepee!!! Ive got a new phone! ahaha. A motorola V3x Pink!!! waaaaah! It's so cute. Im keeping my W550i though. :) coz my aunt got us smart sims and got them on roam, eh kasi baduy globe pagroaming eh. So un Smart nlng! so people can text me and i can text them! kaya 2 phones!! ehehe!!
Here it is :D medyo weird color nya sa picture. But it real life and it's hot pink :)
hmmm
Im kind of getting the hang of this. It's hard but, im getting to the point where somehow i wouldn't care. So yeah didn't text him, and i really don't care. Not tempted to, he told me about communicating still and shit after the break up, and yesterday what did he fucking do? "masasanay ka rin! pede ba tigilan mo na ko?" yeah, that's right he made it sound like i was still going after him. Like hell i am!? and then he hangs up on me. Called him again. He didn't answer. So damn calling him and talking to him. Aggh. What an asshole! And now his true
color comes out! What does that bitch do anyway?! She makes guys turn into assholes. no wonder why she hasn't gotten a proper relationship. If only i was mean enough, id fry her with barbecue, her role? oh well she's the stick.
Like i said. Isn't my loss... it's his. Sabi pa ng mom ko "ang yabang yabang nya naman. Kala nya lahat ng babae humahabol sakanya". [sa ngayon pangit ang hamabol. muhaha] Fine.. if he doesn't want me around him fixing his life up, coz he's only making it worse... fine by me. Lets see whos going to laugh in the future. [ ooOOoOO sabay ako pala pinagtawanan eh. Joke! ahaha ]. Karma has it's ways. :)
Married an asshole.
Okay seriously guys, i feel sorry for britney, she may be a bitch and all around the camera, but still she's human. And she had a great body and her career was going great! And then she marries Kevin, what does he do? go out to parties and enjoy his freaking life, while britney sits at home crying. Ahaha that's quite familiar. is it!??!?!? Well her picture's a cover of a magazine and she's pretty happy about it. She looks great in dark hair. hmmm..
Click on the photo to read the article.
hmmm
We didn't break things up because we hate each other. It was because he thought it would be better since nahihirapan daw xa and nahihirapan daw ako. For my sake nmn, i thought, bahala ng maghirap ako bastat di lang xa mawala sakin ng tuluyan. Hun is confused right now and i get it. But if he really does love me like how he said he did, he wouldn't give up. We still love each other very much, we still communicate... so we're not like you know di nagpapansinan and shit. ewan ko ba.
We had our TFC today! ahaha, yeah, kakatapos lang ng bituing walang ningning. ahaha. corny noh? telesrye. ahaha. i just miss it kasi.
It will take time to heal. Or as he said, we're just giving it a shot, but i know he's slowly letting go. i know him so much, and he knows me too. for now? Love is still in my heart. and i know he loves me too.
single.free.weeee!
Ohh everyones gonna love this post! muhaha. Shits. Well to start off, love has blinded me, you see, i thought hun was the strong one, and that i was weak without him. tsk. How stupid of me. ahaha. Im here, i held on... faithfully, full of honesty and love, i was strong. and he wasn't able to hold on. he became weak without me. So baliktad pala. Well this conversation will explain everything. Read through it.
Nasayang lang lahat ng paghihirap ko. But as ive said and as what my mother told me. "may batas ang karma" . What asshole would tell everyone about breaking up with someone? agh.
....
Shit. Fuck. Damn it.
ooooo
Went cycling, boy did it feel good for my muscles to contract, same feeling everytime i got of the pool except doing laps in pools are better since my whole body works, everything burns. Ahaha. So yeah when i got home, did sit ups for the upper and lower abs.. that felt good too. :) did the 20 seconds hold where my body is curved up like a boat, it's what we do in taekwondo. except there we only do 10, ahaha, i sometimes do uhm 30 or even 40, but now, just cant be bothered, ahaha, i did criss cross situps too.. from yoga. Okay god im giving lectures here na.
No you guys should try yoga, although it says there in the book to not smoke, no meat, and chocolates, i like how they excercise calmy, it's cool. Ahaha. Believe it or not, i do meditating, but since we got here, i don't do it anymore. Don't know why.
God my abs are burning. wooh!
I miss my hunny.
tagalog.new layout.
Okay i know i sould speak in tagalog and all, or type in tagalog rather. But it's hard i have to like, think of what to say next. Unless with english i just type and type what freakin on my mind.
Well anway, this hasn't been quite a good day for me. Basta badtrip. Im not sharing it though, it'll be too painful to type in. So i'll leave it unsaid to prevent issues.
New layout. Got bored so done one. boring. fuck this life.
hmmm
Mom, Dad, and Dan just left, weeeepeee! time to rest, and to bum around the house, im stuck with my annoying puppy, bo, ahihi! I've got no mor credits, hmph! but i think we're changing sims, so it's aryt :) hope hunny would go online soon. 9:46am palang kasi sakanila so i guess not. Here kasi 11:46am na eh. God. Sana parehas nalang time :(
Well anyway, tinatry kong magpost ng tagalog, ahaha, coz i can't speak tagalog straight anymore, see?!? bummer, even on the phone, nakakatawa, nabubulol ako! Im better off to speak in english, kaso with the signal problem and shit, hun finds it hard to understand me.
whoah.aww.yuck.
ahaha i just took a shower, bloody hell how embarassing, my baby sister bolted in the bathroom! God! and she was just looking at me and noticed i had a shower cap on, she was like "ate!!!! that's what mama bought me!!!" i was standing thre shocked, ahaha covering my body parts, looking at the freaking door she swung open! got out and pushed her out and closed the door! ahaha. See.. australian doors don't have locks, ahaha, that's the way it is. Annoying but yeah. ahaha.
Then i came out shivering and shit since it was pretty freezing, and suddenly hun called me, ahaha, i couldn't put a towel on coz i was holding the phone at tip of my fingers since i didn't wan't it to get wet! ahaha. Then there was a bad signal so hun said he's call again. I quickly put my robe on and the towel on my head. Then he called ehehe. He was so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeet! aww. then he said he'll try to call again later. :) and he'd go online daw sa fab.
Well today, we went to Victoria Market, yeah walked around, then wen't to melbourne central, done shopping, then wen't to swanston street, more shopping. Then sis got cranky so we decided to go home. We decided to take the tram back to where our car was parked. Then so i was sitting quietly on the freaking seat when a freaking french guy stands next to me, coz it was full. But he could have just moved back a bit so that his tut wouldn't be at my face, and he had his arm up to hold the thingy so he wouldn't be out balanced, bad thing was he had putok agggh! i swear, i almost fainted! agggh!!!!!!!!
wee!!!!!
Happy Anniversary to Alyssa and JM!!!!!!
ehehe!!!!! wish us both more happy years to come :)
hmm
another bacardi breezer only this time it isn't orange, it watermelon! ahaha, i told my dad to get me a pack, which is 4 in a pack.ehehe, well anyway, la na kong yosi :( hmm. going to have a bath soon. bubble bath. La tlgng magawa eh. hmm. yum rum.
still bored
hmm, did reviews on my multiply today, about some movies, damn it ive got fucking lots to go, and plus the books ive read, asar. i think i might give up on that. Ahaha. watching a movie now. Ahaha. Sana sabay nalang ang school sa pilipinas at sa australia .:( i mean isipin mo ha? summer ko dec-jan. :( eh may pasok nmn. diba? sa pinas. uhuhu....
flashback and the creepers
i can't get online! buhur, sa ym ah. AgghH!
i just had one flashback, ahaha, hun and i we're eating a mc donalds, i said uhm "hun palit tau upuan please" hun asked me "bakit?" i replied "wala po" he asked impatiently "bakit nga?!" so then i was forced to tell the truth can't lie to him. ahaha seriously..so i said "uhm kasi ung lalaki sa likod mo... WAG KANG TUMINGIN!!! ano..tumitingin sakin" but then he still looked back!! waaaah! so un.. ahaha. He got his phone out called some people, away daw and shit, so i snatched his phone and told jondel na wag it wasn't a big deal. so un. i went home he promised me he wont do anything. I thought wala na tlga ung guys kasi mga 3 hours after we ate naglakad and nanuod pa kami ng movie.
When i went home mga 2 hours after he called me, nagkasugat xa and shit sa kamay. ahaha if you look at his hand left had, may scar.. un pala sinuntok nya ung guy. Why? kasi sumugod ba nmn magisa! sabi nya "pare anong problema mo sa girlfriend ko?" sabi nmn nung guy "wala pare, ang cute cute eh, sarap halikan" edi napikon si hun sinuntok! buti nlng you know that security guard sa cinema one? well ung guy kasi was sitting at the steps with his friends, buti nlng that guard stopped them ahaha. hun had hatak nmn eh, everyone would be at bcon. ahaha. but still pinalo ko xa konte sa arm for being bad. ahaha. la lang i remembered lang, napost ko na ata to dati sa dati kong blog eh. sa may xanga ung hkbk. ehehe.
Anyway i bought this book which was pretty expensive, it was $32.95 , imagine? aggh and i didn't have a book mark so i bought one which costs $3.99 ahaha. gastos eh. The book is called creepers by david morell, i think he's an Australian writer, i think lang im not sure. Basta i like the book, i like his writing, i saw kasi may comment si Stephen king, eh i like him also so un, it's cool, im almost finished. I might start writing reviews on my multiply. ahaha about all the books I've read. God dami nun. muhaha.
pool
i remember whenever i felt bad or down, i would normally go down to the in door pool and do lots of laps. Just to escape the annoyance. To escape the shit hole. but now? the only puddle of pool im standing on is my tears. i just wish they would go deeper though.. so i'd drown and b lost forever.
waaah
im running out of cigz.
bored
God i miss hun, i miss how we'd hang out in his house, then his mom will prepare lunch for us. :( ehehe. I miss how he hugs me like there was no tomorrow, how he kisses me so passionately. okay enough drama.
Watching kiss kiss bang bang, we'll been watching Dvds since term break started ( like sembreak in the phils ) Sem break? hmm.. usually i'd look forward to it, coz every school holiday given hun and i spent most of our time together. but now? who to spend it with? no one. ehehe.
There's this party im going to, i don't even know if i could go, coz my mo and dad are going out to a party too, missing out? well there's no one to take care of my baby sister.. yeah i know. the life of a big sister..
yeah well.. atleast ive got something to look forward to :) hun said he'll pick me up at january at the airport, how sweet?? awww... well i hope it''ll really happen :) i miss him so much!!
bacardi breezer
rum, mmm, finally some alcohol into my system. Just a bottle. I asked permission :) it's aryt i can handle it, and they know that, ahaha. well anyway, gana have a bubble bath na. :) ehehe. im sick kasi. muharhar.
updated layout
on.. "Alyssa the Strange Literary works... " click
here to view changes :) it used to be pink and i changed it to orange to suit this site a bit :)
nails painted black
the punk spirit had never left me :-? o well it died a bit when hun a i were together, since everything seemed colorful then. But now that we'r so apart from each other and lifes shit. Black nails. Are back. But i never looked dirty in it, i don't know why. Ahaha. Even emo/punk clothes. Im not a goth okay? ahaha, punk is more like a rocker with style ;)
So anyway, laughtrip sister ko before we left, the pup did a wee on the carpet she yelled out
"daddy!!! bo did a wee on the carpet!! in my room!!" and my dad cleaned it up she said
"aww, my room will be pangsot na!!" pangsot is an illonggo term used when something stinks like a wee. Ahahaha. laughtrip. dunno where she got it from, must have been from my aunt or ma, or me. ahaha. muhahaha.
We went out to watch
"cars" it was a great movie :) im being a kid again, but no really it was great! :) it was my sister's first time to watch inside a cinema! :) she's only 3 kasi and they do tend to be noisy... and today she wasn't she was behave watching the movie. ehehe.
Made a literary site, i have more quotes but then i cant find they are anymore, or i must have not saved them :( so now im starting to save them :) para di sayang. Want to see it?
click here. comment :)
cold
Just finished havng breakfast, have been darn cold man, im shivering like hell. ggrrrr. the whole day yesterday i stayed home, i wasn't feeling well. They all went out and went to highpoint. But today i think i can't stay in even though i can't be bothered to go. We're watching "cars" coz my sister deperately wants to. She's been talking about it the whole week. So i guess we'll be watching that.
I love Juan Miguel Sengson Ochangco.
annoying
me and my mom had a freaking fight again. This time the reason is just shallow. It was because a freaking little stain in my top. She asked me of what it was, i said it was coffee. She started yelling and shit. And directed the subject into another one, she just made it bigger, it becomes bigger and bigger because i don't allow her to step on me like an ant, like what she would always do before. Since i started getting annoyed when i turned 15 with her annoying screaming and yelling again and again, i eventually pushed my self to answer back, seriously, i answer back, i know it's not right, but hell im not perfect and she isn't too!
Fuck this life, im actually hating it. do you think im liking it here? everyone is happy except me! i dont like it here, i think ma misses the phils too, but she keeps saying that there is nothing there. God. There is nothing?! everything is there, our relatives! our friends! our closefriends! favorite spots and favorite everything! my boyfriend is there for crying out loud! and they don't even care about how i feel! I want to go back. I just don't have the courage to tell them. I'd rather stay there and study alone than having to put up with this shitty situation. Fuck.
something edited
simple but cute
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nothing much
just importing songs to my ipod, bloody hell it takes long. grr. and it's so boring, ahaha, ive got like nothing to do, and for the next two weeks i've got nothing to do. hmmph, no work. hmpph.
I miss hunny! Hmmph!
HMPHH!!!!
Last day of work :(
Today basically was a bit sad, it seemed like time flew fast. My supervisor treated me out for lunch as a thank you. Then when i left she gave me a card. how sweet is that? they all looked a bit sad to see me go especially Janice my supervisor. They we're all so nice and I'm thank ful that I worked there. Lynn, manager of eLearning, the team i was working with under the Department of Education, asked me if I was interested for a job in the holidays. (nov-jan) so then I told her! i was! yeah so she asked Janice to get my number so that they can contact me! How cool is that! :) they we're very pleased with my perfrmance. I brought in the school journal thing that Ms. Rawson had given us. Janice gave me all high marks! and I got a comment from her written there, it was something like this... "alyssa is a very efficient and hard working girl, has great computer skill and accelaratng improvements in each task given to her. Very polite.. bla bla" yeah so ma was happy about that. Im just so glad I'm a fast learner man! ahaha. As long as you show me what to do, I'll learn it. Seriously.
Yeah so hopefully, im getting that job, :) para i could show my parents that im earning money for myself and that I really want to visit the phils. I was allowed na, when my mom mentned it, my dad was willing, but it's just that it's embarassing you know? ang mahal kaya ng ticket dito. So un.. :) hopefully things will go smoothly... I hope. :((
Malapit na 1st Anniversary namin ni hunny!yey!! haay! kaso lang I wouldn't be there, we had actually planned something for our anniversary, but then since im not there na wala na... i told hun about itlast night, he was so sweet, sabi pa niya "aww hun don't worry okay? okay lang un!" and then i told him "papadala nalang ako ng gift, okay na yun?" then he said "ay naku... ano ka ba.. wga na hun, di na kailangan.. okay? I love you..." aww! I hate how im missing him so much and there is nothing i can do, but then i remmber him saying dati "dont worry hun, ilang years nalang before we can set foot on earth by ourselves, and we can forever be together." awwwwwwwwwwww!!!!
I went shopping today. I bought a new bag, mittins, scarf, 2 tops, and a coat. :) all of that added up to $150 dollars. Damn shopping. I hate being addicted to it. New photos on multiply! :) the album is below. ;)
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For the good performance Ive had for the past few days in my job, Janice is going to try and get me job for the holidays!!! so un before i go! i can ipon! ;) yeah she'll right me down as a casual employer, it's not sure yet kasi ang dami daw nasa list, but her manager want's me to do it kasi, so hopefully! hmm!! i could earn a lot. :) so ill have more money for the vacation :)
The dark sources of deppression are pulling me down underground, where there can be constant burning heat and pain to feel, but your powerful light of love shines so bright, that I smile nd become powerful enough to pull myself up and walk towards it just to feel your touch once again.
Countdown
Countdown for Alyssa and Jm's Anniversary!!!
how embarassing
well i have to add up, it's so annoying that i have this cold, i think im getting a fever aswell, well it sucks coz i keep sneezing when everyone is so quiet or better yet i have to blow my nose or else it'll run down my face and drop into the keyboard while im freaking typing!! [eww that's too detailed is it?] eww. well yeah.
And oh yeah Vaben Demata is so annoying!
uhm
yeah, yeasterday... hmm.. what did i do, well i had to get up early coz my supervisor told me to be at the offcie earlier to ge things organized coz they we're having a meeting. So yeah Rita gave me heck of thing to do, ahaha, it was a pile of papers, so yeah Data Input was first. Then my supervisor, Junice, gave me some things to do. :) typing and uhm updating her contact list. Yeah. So i finished my work early again so i was dismissed early 4 pm :) im supposed to be out by 4:30 pm yeah, well on my first day i was dismmissed at 3:30, ahaha, they ran out of things to give me. Then i went home, took the train, weribee line to newport and waited for the Williamstown train. I found it funny, coz yesterday the other day i waited there, nagyb, dun ako sa dulo wer there were only a few peeps, then this tough lookin guy came up sat at the end of the bench i sat on, so we were a bit far from each other, so un nad duets kami sa paghit ehehe. Then un the train arrived. Called ma to pick me up. when we got home ic cycled to the supermarket to buy some things ma needed. :) then yun we had a nice dinner and delicious desert! mmm.
Today, same old thing, typing letter, typing reports, and data input, ehehe, and i did the letters as in putting them in envelopes. :) and document organizing. :) she had this software thngo like each document had numbers on thm! ahaha. and each folder has number on them! so on the PC where everyone can access asswell on theirs the documents has to have a specific name, has a number, the number of folder it is in, the date it was done, submission due, and the date when you have finished it ;)
Later on we're going to a school, since this is a government thingamagigie.. so un. :). gotta do something she told me to get something. be home soon :)
hmm
as i got here, nabigyan na kagad ako ng gagawin muhaha, and for 2 hours, darn it, ive finsihed two long work, and now im on a quick break til'll my next work. stiiiiig. ahaha
hopeless
my life is so fucking misserable that there is no hope for me to live.
I just want to fucking die.
Someone shoot me. Maybe if I'm really gone then everyone will notice.
dismissed early
yeah i was. :D kasi daw ang bilis ko raw natapos work ko. ehehe ;) so un tomorrow i have to be earlier since they have a meeting, ako daw sagot ng phones:) ehehe and i have to do data input thingy, don't know wtf that is.
Well anyway i thought i could get home early but the train was delayed for 10 minutes so i had to freeze to death until they announced again that it was delayed for another 12 minutes. Ma couldn't pick me up since Dan was asleep so yun, i had to walk home.
The work today weren't tiring but somehow..now? Im f*ucking tired. seriously.
First Day
at work experience, it's still my break, but i got baxck earlier, since i only ate at mc donalds near the place. :D type in more later, baka makita eh, nakakahiya. Ahaha, ill put in details in. ahaha. sana may ym uhuhu. eh wala eh. nyahaha. :)
Type in later. :)
The Vacation Plan [ Draft ]
No exact Dates yet but here's the plan
After cristmas I am to fly to the Philippines
Spend a week in Gen San to see my Father
Then spend new year there at my Grandma [ mother's side ]
Fly to manila
find a place to stay a bf
stay there till january :)
weepee! hope that pushes through, our deal was that i work and try to pay atleast half of the ticket :) awww. :) It was my mom's idea. :D nyc noh?
While im there im going to spend time with/by...
hunny! :x
friends
KADA
having fun
drink :->
no stress
And worry bout my studies when i get back at the end of January :) Hope could stay longer than a month there though :(
Swanston St.
yeah a freakishly long street full of shops, i couldn't help it man! the thought of my trusty Commonwealth Bank card was in my wallet pushed me more and gave me the urge to shop. Besides! I have the reason why i should shop, well i need proper clothes for my work tomorrow, i am going to work in an office aren't i?! ahaha. And need new clothes for winter anyway.
Yeah my Dad helped me how to get to my work this afternoon so, from North Williamstown station i get a train that goes to Flinders street, get off main exit, walk to collins st. Take tram to Parllament, and cross the road to 2 Treasury Place and Find Dep. Of Education Training, that's where im working :D. ehehhe.
So hopefully tomorrow i don't get a nervous break down, hopefull i dont trip in the middle of the street and deliberately embarass my self, or get sauce on my new top. :D grabe eh. And hopefully they would find me cool on my first day and raise my pay. :D since the freaking school put only $5 a day, what a crap shit. Getthing there would freakin cost me a lot more than $5 dollars and plus the trouble of using my brain during our school holiday!
Just got home
Ysterday was great it was rlaxing, it was like a country place bu not really, so un. Their house was so nice, ahaha, yeah it was big too, and they had a big field other horses go on it to run around, a little lake.. except that if we do the boat thing it would be pretty cold and plus it was raining and wiindy yesterday, winter is really strting.
So un we went to 3 winaries, and mom and other peeps had wine tasting, i did too, so un.. then we went back to have dinner, brook arrived and her boyfriend, james, then robert arrived , my step brother with his girlfriend, Alex. She was pretty she has an asian blood i think, but she looked more like an australian and her body figure was like an australian too.
I wasn't able to go online since uhm it dad's laptop wouldn't set up, they le me use there comp but i was too shy to so i said no instead.
The room i slept in was nice, the bed was nice to. Ahaha, watched a few DVDs last night on my dad's laptop, then called hun. He was at Ria's contest ms. pranque i think with vinni, vinnie used to be Rias bf, but i think they are still going out, there were just complications with Parents and Vinni sad he's wait for Ria... sound familiar? yeah.. dats why him and hunny are friend, stick to one tlga.
So un work experience tomorrow, we're going out soon to frankston, we're just going to figure out how to get there to my work i mean so i wouldn't get lost tomorrow or end up late on my first day, I wonder what i'd be doing.. hmm...
The black fish DIED!!!! RIP!! ahaha. Coz when we bought it, it looked weak anyway. so un,. my sister was like "daddy's fish died" coz "orange" as we called the big gold fish was hers, so that shed be happy about it and won't ask for one in her room, maiinggit kasi xa. "spottie" the white gold fish with orange spots was mine, and the "blackie" the black fish with huge eyes was my dad's daw. Ahahaa.
So un type in later! better get ready! :)
I love Juan Miguel Sengson Ochangco Forever and EVER!!
hmmm..
Sorry if there ar typo errors, I cannot be bothered to go through all the shit I've written, please bear with my writting. Thank you.
I found out something hurtful last night the R**** told me, I called hun all mad and crying told him all about it and asked if whether he knew someone named m******* which was the girl that R**** told me about, and hun was all calm and said no, and asked me if whether it was m******* o*** from school, so i said no and told him, she looked like a freaking slut thats already 17 which m******* o*** isn't. So un, Jerome talked to me and also Vinni, the guys who hun hangs out with all the time, and asked me about it. Jerome was all nice telling me the he swears to God Jm isn't doing anything bad, also Vinni said it,Jerome was like "mahal na mahal ka ni jm" which was pretty un likely for him to say, which probably means it really is true.and Vinni?? he never lies to me, he never lies to anyone, if he did he would tell you right away.
We got into a fight a bit, hun and i, but not really screaming and yelling just merely i was doing my sermon, i got all mushy in the end and couldn't appear strong anymore, i told him "if you find a girl and have a crush on her of fall in love, iwan mo nalang ako..kaysa.." i wasn't able to finish what Ive said when he butted in "yun nga hun eh! hindi mangyayari un!ikaw lang tlga hun kaw lang talaga mahal ko alam mo yun..."
He kept saying sorry for not going online and for not texting me, and begged me to believe him, and he said the sweetest words! aww some of it were like "wala akong iba hun! sa ugali mong yan iiwan pa ba kita? ikaw lang mahal ko Hun, dapat alam mo un!" he said more sweet stuff but i can't be bothered to type it all.
We ended the phone call by saying our sweet I love yous and he was like "ok sweetie pahinga ka na ah? don't worry too much, ikaw lang tlga"
Well today we're going to uhm my dad's friend of family member i don't know, and we'll sleep over since it's far, it's a holiday tomorrow kasi, i forgot why. hmm:-? so un, they are going wine tasting, barbecue and stuff. typical invite friends over kind of thing.
So ma is going to get a prepaid intrnet so i could go online :D and she's bringing her laptop so un, i wouldn't have to bring mine :) nakakaasar paubos na load ko, pano kaya ako makakabili mamaya?? hmmm....
something's fishy
today we went out, we went to footscray market to buy fresh meat and all sea food stuff we like, like oyster, muscles and other stuff as a matter of fact i just mad Kill Patrick oyster bago lang. :)
then we went pass a filipino mini mart, so yun we bought som stuff, we got some sweet corn and nyan, ahaa got some chocolate mallows! weepee! ahaha oh yeah i remembered yesterday i baked chocolate chip muffins. :D. and yun, in front of the filipino shop was pet shop we went on supposedly to buy something for bo, eh un naalala ko when i had a fish in my room dati, but then wen we went back from europe it was dead! uhuhu! no one fed it! :( so un i bought fish with my own money, and a freaking 70 dollars aquarium, pictures of today are below!! :) eheheh. Please tag about them :)
I'll be strong for the sake of our love
I wrote mom a letter last night about how i felt, i thought she was gana be all defensive and mean but she wasn't, i cried as i read it this afternoon, she said stuff like "i know what you're going through and how it feels that's why im so proud of you for being strong most of the times" awww. :( I told her how i felt about Jm and stuff why i wanted to call him and stuff. Bla bla. She was cool about it. :) I love how my mom is almost like a sister, coz we get along well but when we fight war talaga. Ahaha.
Finally exams are over, i dont think i'd be graded for it though, i don't know tlga. So un, next week im going on work experience on tuesday from 9am to 4:30 pm. i don't know what i'd have to do yet but i hope it's ayt, meaning i dont want to clean toilets, muharhar! Joke lang! i don't think i would be doing that. :)
Our Aniverssary is coming up soon, i feel sad about not being there spending it with him, i imagined that night to be perfect for us before, dinner, sweet talk and all... but guess that ain't happening. :( But i'm still partly happy, since Hun is still there for me, locing me more and more each day, being faithful, and being good. :) Im so proud of him, really.. he said he would take his studies seriously daw for me, so in the future maganda trabaho nya :) para daw ndi na ko magtatrabaho, he's so content seriously, he really thinks im going to be his wife, which is so sweet :) aww! and he wants me to be happy tlga parati. :( i miss him so much, i miss his hugs and kisses, it's just been so hard you know? but I'll be strong for the sake of our love for each other, until he holds on to me, i'll hold on to him :)
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haaay
kakapost ko lang tas pinagalitan ako ulit. Pissed off daw. tsk. Im never talking again in this house.
NEVER!I shouldn't have come in the first place, kung papagalitan rin naman ako and shit about missing people and stuff! they do not understand.
sad
Last day of exams tomorrow, then next week alang pasok sa monday, considered as a holiday, so i start work on tuesday, i think. I dunno, im gana ask miss rawson for the number so i can call them and ask questions about what i need to bring and shit.
I got told off by my dad and my mom kanina, my dad saw me on the phone kasi, asar.
I get d
ragged here even if i don't want to and now they tell me about calling. haaay...
I dont want to hear freaking sermons anymore! makes me annoyed!
AGGGGGGGGGGH!!!!!! nakakaasar!!!! buti nalang hun is holding on, he was so sweet pa nmn kanina when i called him, shit.. i feel like crying nnmn
type in soon. Ala kong gana ngayon. Matutulog nalang ako.
what a waste!
ahaha as i got home i planned on cooking my self scrambled egg coz i was freaking hungry, so yeah, and the funny thing was i was making it and then got pepper and the whole cap when off and i didn't know so i spilt all the pepper into the pan, ahaha. Laughtrip.
So anyway exams are tomorrow. Im trying to get uhm premium cbox, im getting the freaking annual thing, but i wont accept my atm, suck shit! aggH!
Post again soon! :)
I ♥ Jm O©häng©σ fσrêvër!
work experience
I start work next week man, ahaha, Good god knows what'll happen! I will take the train to the city :)
Aww naalala ko tuloy ung couple na nakita ko sa train, parang kami ni hun, like sa school laughtrip kasi parang we keep forgetting na mapapagalitan kami! so he hides behind Biboy and kisses me and says I love you. :)) and goes to his cueue. Ahaha. Tapus we got sent to the office several times because of intimacy daw, ahaha, too much kissing and hugging, hindi lang namn kami ung couple na ganun, kami ung pinagiinitan! :) Laughtrip we were called out of our classrooms and i saw hun along the corridor sighning the blue RSM (report on studen'ts Misbehavior .. hmm i think ) then after signing it, he yelled out "hi hun! see you later! i love you! mwah!" and the teacher was still there next to me! tapus un sabi ni Ms.Eden "hay nako Jm!" ahaha, i had to old my laugh, and then went inside our room and burst out laughing! ahaha. He never did leave me without kissing me, never. kahit nagaway kami ang everything, he would kiss me parin. :) and kahit parng nakakunot aming nuo sa inis, ako? nakacling parinsa arm nya, ahaha, hindi prin naghihiwalay. Its funny how we fight "kaw kasi hun eh!" may hun parin, laugh trip tlga, if you interview everyone who know us, you'll be amzed how one minute you see us killing each other and then maya parang wala lang. ahaha. that's how it is, sanay na kami eh.. :) we knoe each other too well, yang away na yan? ahaha wala yan. ;) nawawala lang samin yan.
Oh yeah about work experience i dont know what im going to do yet, but it's an office :) i passed both Health and occupational safety test! weepee! How cool, and yeah so I'm going to have more money in my account ahihi. :) stteeeeg.
And o yeah! ma said babalik ako at the endf of the school year at the phils to visit! :) hun is pretty excited about it! so am i!! waaaaaah! and im gana see all my barkadas and friends and fab friends! and my titas!! weepee!!:)
life is equivalent to suffering
We are given lives to suffer and then have happines and forget about suffering and then get pain again anyway. Well you all know what i mean, i got "life" hun. And now i got "pain" and that's to be apart from him. But it doesn't matter though, he still loves me so much, he still loves me more and more each day :)
Finished my essay, got mad dad to check it and he got annoyed with my laptop :)) ahaha. It was so funny seeing him so annoyed.
Im currently tired, my friends had noticed it too the whole day, they said i was quiet. Hmmph, that new. My alarm rang this morning i was like "already!?! it seems that i only fell asleep 2 hours ago" yeah that's what you get when your little sister sleeps in your room, darn, she was so peaceful when i was watching her sleep, nyerk.. grabe pala pag nagising.
I quite like my yahoo skiN! it's pink, i also have bronze and uhm light blue! its cute! here oh.
kulang sa tulog
My sister slept here in my room last night, at first i couldn't sleep coz i was worried i might squash her or something, i watched her sleep so cute and so peacefuly, and suddenly i remmbered hun, ahaha, until now my 3 yr old baby sister talks about him.. she still knows "jm" ahahaa, she must have liked how they chased around the house, and the appearance of my boyfriend in her princess party when she turned 3 :)
Oh well she woke up every 2 hours man, and cried, so i woke up too, and if i wake up once in a while, i wake up not satisfied with my sleep : hmmph! oh well post later gotta have breakfast. :)
Good Morning everyone!
today
uhm we went to highppoint again, then went tofederation square had some food, then now we're home. And im fucking annoyed. hate my fucking life.
mmmm
my yahoo messnger is finally working again.. :) haay...
Hun and I had a long argument last night..:( he went to this party i didn't approve of, dunno where the hell it was held at, and plus the people he hung out with aint really trust worthy, he only got mad when i told him about it, Boys.. so hard headed.. hmph.
Being far from him is so hard, it seems that i dont know where he goes to anymore, i do trust him but im just scared for him you know? i worry a lot, and he doesn't get that... that's the annoying thing... lucky for him, i only go out with my parents, and no where else, from school i get home straight, and to add up my school is an all girls school. So he should understand why i get worried.
Life isn't getting much easier, the hair splitting emotions of leaving the phils was hard enough, and i guess hun driving lose from me would be even much harder.. i dont want it to end because i left for some place, if he does love me he should help me work this out.. our anniv is coming up... it wouldn't be so much fun though.. snce i am very far from him :(
Dear Lord please help me...:(
ohhh it strikes again
God!! for this day i have another album of my pics! ahaha so freaking vain, there's nothing wrong withthat naman eh, as long as im not affecting people!! did my nails when we got back it has little pink and red hearts on it and big black hearts :)
here
but it isn't that clear eh :( pero its nyc nmn diba? :D Album of the day .:+ weirdo +:.31 Photos, 1 reply
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a very nice day
oH! he weather is great today! pure warmth from the oh so loving sun! :D weepee! :) and we're going to footscray market later, ahaha, and uhm i think im going to get my self a USB flash disk, since i do need it for school, ahaha, ma keeps getting annoyed coz i get hers. :) yeah it'll probably cost around 30 bucks or so, and the speakers hell i think they are expensive here, ewan ko ba bago pa naman speakrs ko, but its not working na, i think it's stuffed up from the packing, stupid packers, they even packed the listerine that had like 2 mL of stuff in it. Ahaha, laughtrip. Anyway.. un.. :)
Bo's outside i can see him from my window.. ahaha thats what i love about my room, i get the view of the backyard so if it's sunny the sun goes into my room :) while other room its cold. :D and at night i dont have to close my drapes, and fall asleep watching the moon and the stars. :) yeah well anyway, bo's playing with his tail, ahaha typical puppy play, "chase own tail!" ahaha so its like a little ball of cotton moving across our back yard. ahaha how cute :D
I miss hunny .. :( ehehe. :)
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gone
My aunt left this morning, her visa was only up to one month, i don't know why kaasar nga eh, samantalang mga walang kwentang prostitutes are able to stay her for six months! It was so sad, yesterday as i got home my aunt was crying, hugging my sister, she's the one who takes care of my sister, it's family thing :) i was once taken care by her too!:) so un, she cried, it was so sad. Then at night as we were watching punkd in the living room ma came back crying, she felt sorry for tiday... :( i did too I absolutely knew how she felt.. I told ma.. "it's hard to live a place expecially when you get attached to someone" and she did agree..finnaly! joke.
Early morning today, my aunt woke me up, told me she was going na..:( i was so sleepy pa my brain wasn't working properly.. :D so i hugged her nalang, and she hugged me back and kiss me, and told me to take care of my self and no to lose my phone again.. she was crying i think.. awww. :(
Last night nga when ma came back from the living room crying, she said that my aunt fell asleep in dan's bed... hugging dan...
Flash back!! I remember hun was sleeping hugging me on my last night! :( awww... uhuhu. Sabi pa ni mama.. "3 months lang nmn eh and you'd be here again" and i keep saying "buti ka pa nga 3 months lang ako 6 months pa!" and tiday would always laugh! ahaha. :)
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sorry if i havn't posted yesterday, i was so upset! I lost my gawdamn phone man! I cried like hell in front of ma which was so freaking embarassing!! ahaha.. so un ma called the school about it. She asked me to get ready coz we were going out for dinner, i said no, kasi i was so scared to tell my dad, and my mom said not to worry too much baka raw andun lang, so i kept crying and then un nagbihis, we wen't to the city and ate at an italian restaurant, hmm the food was greta and eventually i stopped sulking and enjoyed the night anyway.
So first thing i did today was i went to the reception and asked if someone had handed a cellphone but the ladt there only said no, so i was screaming inside yeah? but i didn't give up, the classroom opned, the phone wasn't there, i went to ou coordinator and she told me i could ask one of the IT teachers to open P101 for me, it's of the computer rooms, ask MSJ how many computer rooms they've got coz kahit sa music room meron! ahaha, astig tlga, and it had keyboards pa our assignment pa nmn was to do the "ive got the music in me" on keyboards dun sa freaking music creator, well anyway.. back to the phone, and there it was laying peacefully on the floor!!! ahaha di nga xa halata eh, it was under the table! buti nalang no one took it! yey!!
And when i got home, un nagkantahan kami ni ma sa magic sing, ahaha, then she and dad left to go to somewhere a dinner probably.. ehehe, and then ako nagpakavain :) so click on the image below to see the album :)
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The dark sources of deppression are pulling me down underground, where there can be constant burning heat and pain to feel, but your powerful light of love shines so bright, that I smile nd become powerful enough to pull myself up and walk towards it just to feel your touch once again. 
