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| Your Personality Profile |
You are pure, moral, and adaptable.
You tend to blend into your surroundings.
Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.
You believe that you live a virtuous life...
And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.
As a result, people tend to crave your approval. |
OoOOoo Astig
| You Are a Strawberry Jelly Bean |
You love yourself for who you are, critics be damned! You know you don't have to take risks to make life more interesting. It's good enough as is. |
im a strawberry bean!!
| You Are 50% Vain |
You're a little vain, but more than anything you have a healthy amount of confidence.
Thinking the world of yourself is great. Just don't think less of those who aren't as pretty as you! |
aww astig! ahaha i thought i would be freaking more than 50% man!
| Your Porn Star Name Is... |
Brown Bunny |
wtf?
| Your Deadly Sins |
| Envy: 60% |
| Greed: 20% |
| Pride: 20% |
| Gluttony: 0% |
| Lust: 0% |
| Sloth: 0% |
| Wrath: 0% |
| Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14% |
| You will die in a duel. |
ooOOoOo..
Photoshoot
I felt like posting it again. :) kasi may slideshow thingy na ang photobucket. Pero konte lang nilagay ko. 10 lang pede eh. ehehe
to quit or not to quit,that is the question.
I've only got one pack left, and i've used up almost half of it. Now, the question is do it quit after that pack or buy more? which would be pretty hard to do. Let us look into conclusions shall we?
To Quit
I wouldn't have to buy new ones which cost so much
It would be good for me
I would have money saved up
Mom will lay off my ass
Wouldn't have to worry if i have cigs left.
I would still have money to call hunny
Or not to Quit
I would have to get packs which would cost about 10 bucks converted to philippine money it would be 500 pesos, and in the phils you can get a pack for 28 oh screw the cheap philippine conversion.
I would be so hard to quit dude
It's been a habit, its part of my life [ nyerk?! ]
Mom would keep bragging me about it and dad too.
I wouldn't have enough money for hun. :(
So i've come to a decision, :D i will quit smoking! yehey! muhaha. But i guess it'll be easier here since the only poeple i see smoking are adults on places we go, which s tempting, but it'll be more tempting if it we're poeple i knew and were in front of me :) So i would still have enough money for hun if i bought em. I just wan't to use it up on something important, and hun is very and way more important than that:) Oh god i will be so devastated for a few months without them. aggh. the life.
Hmm... so i therefore conclude that after i've finished the pack it is better for me to quit smoking.
I hope i'll succeed. muhaaha. ano to science?
I would give up anything just to feel your presence....
I love... and i miss...
Hun!!!!
A very serious talk with tin over yahoo messenger...:)
It was because tin had a status on ym saying tha 1 week nalang babalik na xang pinas, she's at sydney kasi ngayon for a vacaiton, which is really close to melbourne. Not really close but close. ;)
tired
Im so tired, not sleepy, well i am a bit, but you know i just started school but im tired already i want it to end, im tired of crying everynight, agh.. but guess what? im not tired of loving hun :D yehee.
Im waiting for him now, he texted me bago lang, he's at the church with his mom :) anghel tlga.. ehehe. Pero maya pa cguro un, pero sana magonline na xa, i need to go to sleep na kasi, it's late na eh, 11 na.. :( may pasok pa ko tom, im going to be so tired nanaman hmph!
Yey! music tom and then info. ehehe, music, practice siguro sa band.. wehehe.. I'm one of the vocalists, ehehe. Astig banda nmn puro babae. Muhaha, then our teacher is the principal, she plays great on drums!! grbe! saludo tlga! and she also plays good on piano and the guitar! stig tlga.. stig.. girl power.. nyrk tha sounded so weird coming from me! ahaha.
Uhm the quote below.. is a message from
hun
"dont worry hunny, tau talaga forever okay? I promise you that.. I love you..."
haaay
another monday tomorrow, another week to survive, another week to worry about, and next week i've got lots more to freaking worry about. Grrr. Pero i'll look at the bright side, time is running, and soon enough i will see hun again, ahaha. God I can't believe next month, Mag 1 year na kami! ehehe.
I have essays to do. I'll start my sose essay tomorrow, and uhm my english essay after sose. :) Agggh! I can't be bothered to do it man, nakakaasar tlga pag bitin vacation mo. hmmph!
And o yeah thanks Carissa Guzman for dropping by! ;) ehehe. And Jeje Montecillo ;) :D and ofcourse.. Hunny!!!
I miss...
Everything about the philippines, except jolog skwaters who chase us at atc. Aww! I miss my friends, how we would hang out at the mall just endless fun you know.. :( and ofcourse i miss hun... everything about him, everything he does to me... how he brushes my hair with his fingers, how he would wrap his arms around me from behind, how he would rest his hand on my waist as we walk sometimes, how he kisses me, how he hugs me, how he looks at me, how he says I love you, i miss the days being with him. i miss how we would make faces ng sobrang pangit kami para laughtrip...i miss everything!
It's good that we make it to the point that we communicate everyday.. we always do! :)
Well anyway... were going out later.. we're going to high point ata.. dunno.. and thre's a little bit of sun, so i would be able to feel a bit of warmth on my face, ahaha. Joke!
No matter how
hard it can be being
apart from you, but knowing that you're
still there for me,
still there to love me more and more each day... it
keeps me strong,
strong.. to
hold on longer because I know in all this
pain, in the end.. it's still
you and i.
New Layout..
Yey, done my new layout sa wakas it took me 30 min, muharhar, and then i got one code wrong, i couldn't freaking find it! yun pala i forgot to type in " < / p >" to finish the code where it begins with " <>" so the rest of codes below it were affected too.. so un, i was gana pull my hair out na from annoyance coz i couldn't find it, until i remembered what i last put in. Ahahaa. tuloy kanina, the background was at the side. taka ako bakit ganun. muhaha.
Pictures were taken by my mom, asar kasi di ako nakapagayos pero ayos lang, cute parin, Joke! :D ..
It was at the park near our house, it was in front of the beach :) so un.. uhm ma practiced her photography. There were more pics taken! i'll upload then soon! :D
excuse me..
uhm i don't think some people quite get the meaning of whore and bitch. Coz you know, instead of using it to describe themselves, they use it on other peeps. How is that?? ang labo talaga. Plus the word pathetic, they use it on people as well.. when they don't know it's them that are pethetic.. hmm mga tao talga ang labo. can we even consider them as humans?
aww!!!
Hun and I were chatting earlier, it lasted for 2 hours, coz he had to log off, naubos na kasi time nya, but he said babalik daw xa later..:) then uhm both of us were on webcam, he was so cute, I remember how I would feel his face then he would smile at me, then I would kiss him, then he'd hug me! Awww I wish I could feel his face but it'll only suck coz it would just be the monitor screen I'd be feeling. Aww and he kept making kissing faces and typing in "mwah" after!
We kept typing I love yous and I miss yous to each other! Aww..
I remember dati when he said.. "sa lahat ng nagging girlfriend ko ikaw lang minahal ko ng ganito, ikaw ang pinakamahal ko" awww!! Then when we argued about something before I can't remember what it was basta we were arguing then it came to the point when he said "sorry ah! Pagdating sayo hun natataranta ako, sayo ko lang kasi naramdaman to, ikaw lang ang nagpakita sakin ng totoong pagmamahal.." awwww!!!!
God Im so thankful that instead of ending our relationship hun insisted that we’d continue it, he said he was willing to wait no matter how long! How sweet is that! Aww.. and he is loyal oo.. ;) I know.. coz I just know..i have my sources..
Don't hate me coz you aint fucking me bitch!
yey weekend
phew, another week i had survived, it seems to take forever para mag december so i can see hun again. Well anyway today hmm.. it was okay. ehhe. my seat mate was absent, rasika.. yeh, dunno why, i made her invtation for her party, i'll pin it it here later in this post.
God i miss hun, we had a long chat last night, and he wasn't playing coz i told him so, so i had a good night sleep! for the first time we got here, see what so much love can do?! ahaha, joke. Pero i still miss him so much, and that fact still makes me sad.
I think we are going to watch "take the lead" later at crown, i dunno... ehehe, i hope i could come. I wana watch it too!! ehehe!
Nothing will ever get in our way... as you said hunny.. it'll be forever you and me...
I remember....
when we bought bo, our puppy, danielle seemed to realize that somehow bo made me smile and happy. She told me "remember ate jm is not here, so we bought bo for you" I laughed at this because a 3-yr old told me that..
She had uhm.. met jm before, coz hun was invited to our house by ma, we swam in the pool and hun around my room, he fell asleep on my bean bag like a baby, he wouldn't wake up even though i cranked up the speakers on my boombox. Yeah danielle fell asleep when hunny left so she wasn't able to say good bye, she was quite happy, she was hugging him and kissed him on the cheek and ahaha had a game of chase with him. She woke up the next day looking for hun, which was a bit of an awww. she kept saying "where's jm ate?? i want to play with him" or she would ask my aunt "tiday wers ate's boyfriend?" ahaha. When i asked her, "do you love jm?" then she said "yes he's my boyfriend" ahaha, we all laughed then she said "dyuk lang" since she couldn't say it properly the way filipinos say it. ahaha.
Yeah chatted with hun last night, ehehe, :) paubos na load ko man. bummer. Anyway, were getting smart sims from phils and get them on roaming, coz i heard it wa bettr than globe. I dunno. So yeah hun can text me again.
I miss how everthinbg used to be, you know? like hun and i never had to worry about tomorrow, it wasn't a big deal since we always knew that we will still be togethr, we are still like that you know? but you know it's harder since.. we want to see each othr each day... but there's nothing we can do...
We are born in this world because each and everyone of us has a purpose in it... My purpose in this world probably was to love you deeply forever, and to be loved by you more!
dearest to my heart.
Brothers
Dale reynaldo [ kuya ] never seen you since your graduation I wonder how you have been hope you are fine. :(
Patrick Gonda [ kuya ] I also don't know where you are now and how your career is going. Gma ka dati diba?
Jonmark Delas Alas [ bro ] miss those ybs together bro. Ahaha. Hope you're alryt! And hopefully this school year do it properly?
Thomas Tanchanco [ bro ] my big bro and I am his big sis, ahaha pano kaya un noh!? well last time i saw you was before i left
f@b, uhuhu, hope you're also fine! keep in touch! Ahaha! CHAT CHAT CHAT!!
Julio Paco [ coo ] its actually cooyah if you don't get it guys. Well coo kahit masungit ka thanks for being there for me before! and giving out advices. ;)
Kevin Katzer [ coo ] Hmm... love your hair. ahaha. hope your okay.
Roy Malinao [ bro ] you always annoy me, but thanks for being serious whenever i needed you!!!
Matthew Manankil [ lil' broie ] haaay nako broie since you left Marymount you never chatted with me nah, hope you're fine too!
Mike [ bro ] sorry i don't know your last name bro! ahaha. But thanks for helping me with some troubles!
Jerome Frias [ bro ] this guy just started saying "bro" so i strted calling hm that, havn't seen you ever since! but thanks for chatting with me before
Sisters
RoseAnne Ventura [ ate ] used to be my bestfriend, still is but you know? we just dont say it, we're what you call "very close" ahaha. Thanks ate for always being there
Tawny Nadal [ sis ] aww my little sistah! miss you so much sis!!! :( hope you're doing fine with everything in your life.
Guardian Angel
Best friends
Hanika Trinidad [ shrek ] shrek i miss you po! :(( hope you're okay!!! uhuhu. Mwahh!!!!
Paolo Ona [ Besh ] loko lokong best friend ko! uhuhhu, 11 months of friendship and i know you well! Joke! ahaha. Hope you're okay besh! miss you!
Close Friends
Perveen Rathore [ perv ] miss you na :( how's your love life?!
Roselle Velasco [ selle ] kashare ko ng kaekikan sa mukha. Kamsta na rin love lyf mo mare?
Tin Estrada [ tin ] shit man, i miss you na mommy! uhuhu
My One and Only
Jm Ochangco [ hun ] thank you for being my bestfriend, my kuya, my boyfriend at the same time! you're the only guy who knows me so well, thank you for being there in times of trouble, thank you for always comforting me in all your ways, thank you for everything! Coz if i type everything in it would take agaes!!! I miss you so much! and I love you so much!!! Be good always! My heart belongs to you forever... :) :x :* >:D<
And to all my other friends! Hope you guys are all right too!! Please keep in touch always!! I love you guys!! I miss pinas!!!
Work
Yeah ahaha, while my Filipino friends are having a nice summer i am here freazing my arse off and loaded with work. Not really loaded, but i can say it's work since it's two essays man. One for SOSE and one for ENGLISH, english is about a book i havn't even read! ahaha.
Oh well, im calling hun later, so i can have a good night sleep on our 11th monthsary!! weepee! ehehe. He does love me so much!
Yeah had one of those serious talk with Angela, God man i cried ahaha. Shit tlaga i never stop crying. Oh well my life still has purpose, i still have my hunny. :)
Happy Monthsary to me and my Hunny!!!
Happy 11th Monthsary
Hunny!!!
Haaay
It's our monthsary tomorrow. I feel happy and sad at the same time. Happy, because we were together for 11 months now, Sad because it's the first time that we're celebrating it apart. Monthsary dates are usually super extra sweeter, we buy each other stuff and all that so that we would remember each month, soon enough we will be a year together, and that biggest thing wouldn't be celebrated together too.
I love hun, i do,... a lot.. and i know in me that he loves me a lot too, and other people friends or not can see that too. As hun would always say when i say "hun i love you" he would reply "I love you more!!" teasingly..
There really isn't a night that i wouldn't cry is there?! agh.
awww
A chat with one of my bestfriends, :(
Hating it
Earlier before we headed home, I said i needed load, and my mom got all mad. She said why do i have to call parati. Hindi naman eh, just at night. Why can't they ever gt my situation? Did they ask me if i was happy being here? no. Do they care of how i feel? i think No. They do not know how much pain i am going through. They would always say "bata ka pa, hindi pa xa ang makakatuluyan mo" "marami pa jang iba" "makakahanap ka pa ng iba". Why does it always have to be like that? As i said to Carla last night, she said maybe they are just too old to remember how to fall in love. I dont know. Ma doesn't know how much i cry each night, she doesn't know how much i wish the photo of hun sitting next to me is real, she doesn't know how painful it is, and how hard it was to leave someone special behind. Makakahanap ng iba? and then what? lilipat nanaman and i would get my heart broken?
I know i aint a perfect daughter she doesn't have to rub it all in my face everyday, almost every hour. I know I smoke, I smoke coz of depression, back in the Philippines i smoked coz we didn't get a long well like we used to, and here? the same thing, but another stressful thing was added, and that was to be away from hun. Wala man lang kacomfort comfort na bnbgy si ma, to make things worse she yells a m about it, about not talking to him anymore. I hate it. I just hate it.
It's hurting me to see that everyone is liking it here, they are you know? contented, and they really want to live here, as for me? I'm living like hell, i may not show it, I mean hello? living at a great place, but it isn't just making me happy, it's making me sad. Ever since we got here there wasn't a night i didn't cry.
I just miss hun so much you know? and no one here understands. I miss my friends, i miss everything. I was contented with everything there. I was, and they took it all away. I know this can be a great oppurtunity for me, but sana naman intindihin ako ni mama na kung bakit ako tumatawag gabi gabi diba? nahiwalay na nga ako sa mga mhal ko lalo pa nyang dinidiin na mali ako.
I've got to stop this typing now peeps, im crying like hell. Bummer. It's like i want to die, and end this pain right now! but then i think, what about hun?
another day
another day passed by again, ahaha, and each time it does i miss hun even more and more, missing him makes my love stronger for him you know? like i believe that in all this pain we're going through somehow in the end we will be together happy. I think of this as a test given by God, no actually hun thinks that, he told me so it was just a test and that we could prove to everyone that we can do it! So that in the future we look back and hold our heads up high and just laugh at this, and say we've gone through it, and be proud of it! i really do hope that'll happen you know.
Woke up at 9am today took a shower, and couldn't help t, had a cig, i know i shouldn't since my mom goes baserk if i do it in the house, well she did. And her yelling never fails to make my heart beat faster.
Well today we're going to see my step brother, Robert, and maybe mom said i could shop there, i don't know. I want to move houses man, this house is too small for us already, I mean it was okay when there was just the 3 of us living here, and i was like 8, so i didn't have much stuff. but now it doesn't work for us anymore.
Got to go. I think we're leaving now. Ma is still bragging about the cig smell man. grrr.
Vanity Strikes Again!
I only chose 10 pictures, coz 10 lang ang pede, but 32 yang pics kanina, ahaha. If you want to view them all
click here
Surveys
30 This or Thats
Bold whatever you like more.
McDonalds or Burger King
Coke or Pepsi
Vanilla or Chocolate
Sun or Rain
Summer or Winter
Kisses or Hugs
Cats or Dogs
Scary Movies or Comedies
School Sports or Clubs
Pools or Oceans
Beach or Mountains
New York City or Miami
Chicken or Beef
Love or Lust
Being Single or Taken
Nice Eyes or Good Teeth
Blondes or Brunettes
Good Looks or Good Personality
Kindness or Trustworthiness
Dancing or Singing
Girl friends or Guy friends
Swings or Trampolines
Planes or Trains
Teen People or CosmoGirl
Apples or Oranges
Funny or Sarcastic
Hello or Goodbye
Dating or Relationships
Mascara or Eyeliner
Music or Movies
headache
God man, i was so tired yesterday i didnt go online na damn as i got in the house familiar furnitures were there na, and daming boxes ahaha, and i opened my room there were also a lot of boxes, so i had to un pack pa instead of resting, and ngayon there are still 6 boxes left for my room. I wonder where my blow dryer is man.
My d-link thing is working now, you know, the plate that receives a signal from it's modemn, so i can cary my laptop around the house and still get a signal, its a wireless internet thing, i use it sometimes when i go to cofibean since they also have a signal thingy there. Well okay.
More of my clothes arrived, ahihi, and all my shoes, ahaha, except the other ones we had to throw away the ones i didn't use anymore.
I survived a week of my new school, it's good that it's all girls, ahaha, kasi if there were guys and perfumes were everywhere i would ave probably cried or something. They said i was pretty cool yeah? yeah? ahaha! coz i could fit in pretty well, it was my first week of school and i was being goofy. The hell. ahaha.
Anyway, some people are too scared that some might reveal their secrets, since they lie around, they dont wan't other people to find out their true BAHO.
DUUUUH
cant she be more stupid, ofcourse she was talking about me, like my boyfriend was the only boyfriend she got, and guess what Jm is actually regreting that he courted her he said she wasn't even attractive, ahaha, so dont go comparing your self to me missy. Like hello not two timing? for crying out loud people! ahaha what do would you call it then!? multitasking relationship? like hell you liar.
How stupid can it get? You're like the only girl that says it's easy to get guys, like so HUMBLE AH!? NOT! Yeah it's easy to get a guy but you wouldn't be that sure if the guy is good yeah? Kapal ha! God I hate it when people do that. Ahahaha!
Like until now she's still bragging about him, tapos papalabasin nya sa mga tao na he still likes her! like hello out of all the girls he'd had from the past na kwento nya sakin and he said they were okay, and she was the only one naikinihiya nya sakin man! Totally!
Why does she think she's so good at relationships? guys won't last with her you know! ahaha. My boyfriend even told me na sobrang inis na xa, he had to hold on kasi naawa xa, kasi she would cry and everything especially about that two timing thing, KADIRI! Kapal talaga to two time Jm ha!? ahaha.
TWO TIMER. YUCK. KAHIYA.
Yey
Thursday weehee, which means it's friday tomorrow, our stuff will arive tom ehehe.
Well anyway yesterday I wasn't able to go online yesterday since i had to study coz we had our maths test today. Ehehe. The teacher said i didn't have to stress much, but duh i still had to study noh. I dont know what my score would turn out to be. Ahaha.
I miss hun man. Ahaha. Kanina at our IT class i got online, but they banned the blogger site, but xanga site was okay! ang daya man! ahaha!
The very tiring second day
oday pretty much we didn't do anything. Oh well first two periods we had class, which was pretty boring, i was so sleepy for watching tha documentary about the war of the british against turkey. Ehehe. The big advantage of the turkey were there terain, it was pretty much the setup, there were enough soldiers of the british, but it was too hard to attack from the freakingly high hills and the turkish guns were not visible, to the fact that there were only so little of them, they were still able to protect their land, how cool? ahaha.
Well anyway, after SOSE which was our history class we had RE-ED our religious education was next. That was pretty much boring too, but i kept chatting up with Rakisa pronounced as "rakisha" yun. Then recess.Then after that we went to the hall, coz there was someone there to talk to us about safety and shit, so i kinda fell asleep there, but no body noticed thank god! ahaha. It took up two periods man! grabe!
Then after that we had lunch, i had dimsum, ahaha, i wasn't hungry man! ahaha, So un after lunch we had two periods of PE, grabe kapagod man, i was so worried pa naman, of something. Then un it was fun, we played footie as what we call here in Ausie, but it's actually "football" ahaha. Ayun. Saya.
Then the bell rang, went back to our home room, then un 5 minutes of etchuz, then un uwian na. Then waited for the bus at the bus stop. Tapus un from the bus stop outside our village i walked home. Ehehe.
Did some painting, but didn't finish it kasi tinamad ako, then now im here na, typing my ass off.
Oh! i wish all our stuff was here, ive got no etchuz on my bag man! asar, it's just plain, with one doggy stuffed hanging on it, ahaha, a little cute orange doggy, normally i'd have lots of etchuz on it! ahaha, and ofcourse all my hair stuff, and face stuff, and all my other stuff! Darn! ahahaha!
I miss hun so much! ahaha napagalitan pa ko kanina, kasi i called him as i go home, then i coughed nagalit! sabi nya "anong nangyari sayo?" then i was like "uhm what do you mean?" sabi nya "may ubo ka?" so i said "opo" sabi nya.. "uminom ka na ng gamot?" so i said "indi po" then he said "gusto mong pagsabihan pa kita? " natawa ako so i said "o sige na po iinom na" then he replied "good" ehehe. Bait talaga ng hunny ko! love na love talaga ako! hehehe! Malapit na 11th Monthsary namin! weepee!
yuck ang feeling
Wish mo lang kamukha mo ko. Haay nako, pnili nya ko dahil naisip nyang better looking ako sayo, diyos ko nalang talaga. Di sa mayabang ah.. nakakatawa talaga! Ay mali pala, there's no one to choose from, kasi he dumped you, and fell in love with me. Deal with it. :) If you really think he was that special and that you two had something, bakit kaya nag two time ka? kadiri, sa lalaking di pa kilala. Desperado.
